I am currently 19 days into a 21 day fast. To be honest, this is only one of a few times that I have “fasted” and truly pursued the heart of the Father. Yes, I wanted to eat healthy anyway. Who doesn’t want to lose a few pounds and use a fast as an excuse to abstain from certain food and drink? However, this time around I wanted to see if I could get some true revelation when it comes to the plans that God has for me (Jeremiah 29:11).
I’m not one to get caught up in the legalism that wants to marry itself to any good Christian intention so to follow the “rules” was never a real concern of mine. What I wanted was to remove things from my life that were more valuable to me than my time with God. I don’t think any of us intentionally put things before God but what I’ve learned is that if I’m not intentionally putting God first then I am, by default, intentionally not putting Him first. By joining a fast, that was called by my pastor, my hope was that as I replaced these “desires of the flesh” with intentional time with God that I would grow closer to Him and have a better understanding of His intentions for how I am to partner with Him to do His good work (Ephesians 2:10).
Over the past 19 days the revelations have been real. There is so much I could share with you but honestly I think the most important thing I have learned during this time of intentionally pursuing God is that He is looking for two things from me: Trust and Obedience. During the two and a half weeks I have listened to a lot of sermons (part of my fast was to replace media with only reading my Bible or listening to sermons). Early on during the fast I heard a preacher say, “Trust is God’s love language.” I liked this so I spent some time meditating on that idea and exactly what it looked like. Trusting God looks like Peter stepping out of the boat onto the raging sea. Trusting God looks like my friend losing his job and starting a business because he felt the Lord was leading him to do so. Trusting God looks like another friend of mine leaving his job and waiting on the Lord to provide. I have found that when the Lord asks us to trust Him it is usually followed by an opportunity to obey. In Matthew 14:22-33, Jesus was out on the sea in the storm. The disciples weren’t sure if it was Jesus so Jesus did one of the things that he loves to do; he calmed their fears by saying, “Take courage! It’s me. Don’t be afraid.” Peter must have been thinking about going out to join Jesus but if he was anything like me he wasn’t sure if that was the Lord calling him or his own excitement wanting him to jump. So he responds to Jesus and says, “Lord if it’s you tell me to come to you on the water.” What stands out to me here is that Peter didn’t say, “Jesus if it’s you tell me to jump in the water.” He says, “tell me to come to you ON the water”. He trusted that if it was Jesus there was going to be a miracle. So Jesus said, “Come.” Of course you know the rest of the story. Peter steps out onto the water, walks on water for a second, sees the waves and starts to sink but Jesus grabs him. Peter trusted and obeyed.
What is Jesus calling me to do? With what is he asking me to trust Him? Where is He asking me to obey Him? I know that some things are hard for me to let go. I know that with each victory I wake up to another day of challenges, but I also know that he has made it clear that He wants to take me to the place He always planned for me. The path to that place is through trust and obedience in Him.
Over the past month I have learned that 1% obedience is 100% disobedience. I pray that I trust him with my life. I pray that when He calls me to “come” I will walk out to him even if it looks like a storm that I may be walking into. I want to trust Him in the storm. I want to obey His call to come.
Only you know what trust and obey means in your life. Only you know where Jesus may be calling you to come. I pray that as we pursue Him we trust Him to do his work through us. I pray that we obey His call to come.